my precious jewel

my jewel has given me the strength i need to continue in search of answers - answers to asperger's syndrome. asperger's is a high functioning form of autism. he was recently diagnosed. he is such a loving and handsome boy. always tries to do the right thing, but puts his foot in his mouth all too often. he's so smart. genius. he's in therapy now. tonight is his second session. i'm meeting the therapist tonight to go over our treatment and goals for him.

soccer season just ended; wanted to sign up for baseball. but i think we'll do art therapy instead. he's an incredible artist.

feeling positive.

plant needs watering.

so while my marriage is seriously on the rocks and i am holding on to my faith, this song plays on the radio. i couldn't agree more. its so simple.

"If you love me, say it, If you trust me, do it, If you want me, show it, If you need me, prove it"

so simple.

if you have a plant and you don't water it, what happens to your plant? it dies, folks. so picture me - the plant...slowly fading.

a friend called me this week telling me i needed god in my marriage. and although i agree, i'm drained. i think we need some distance between us for a while. meanwhile, i'll seek god. he'll have to search for answers on his own. wednesday night (tomorrow) we're meeting up, me & god - 7:15p. i need to hear his message. he's knocking on my heart.

can't go through this alone. but i'm feeling strong. looking forward.